was suffering from depression and mental breakdown today.
i did not know why i had such strong feelings.
probably too stress i think..
haix.
was deciding to drop any subs or not.
it's either physics or history..
but i hesitated.

physics;
opens many doors, to JC, poly and even my future career.
quite interested in this sub.
however, dislike wee's teaching style.
couldnt pass no matter how hard i've studied.
even it's a pass, it's only a C at most. )):
disappointing la..

history;
interested in this sub.
often inspired by mr kamal..
lessons are interesting and can b easily absorbed.
however, study workload is far too much.
does not really help in MY ideal future career.
nv really studied for any tests / exams.
but for my o'levels, i dont wanna and dare not risk.
hard to make my decision..

hopefully someone can ENLIGHTEN me. please.

btw our cls lost the debate to 3E4.
LOST LITERALLY.
in our hearts, we felt tat 4E2 is the ultimate winner!!
jus tat 3E4 is the national debate team, doesnt mean tat the judges hav to b BIAS?
oh well. UNFAIR.
even the certs were printed beforehand..
how ridiculous can it b? argh.
it's a good and tough fight seriously.
deborah, shaun and jeeyang didnt lose their composure thou.
they were awesome!
even mdm zainab said tat we should hav won.
but tat mrs wong and mdm sathiya said tat they should win.
argh.
OUR ENG TEACHER DID NOT SUPPORT US ACTUALLY!
oh well..
i will only listen to and BELIEVE in mdm zainab's words! ((:
well done DEBATORS!
i believed tat they had learnt A LOT throu all these debates.
EXPERIENCE.. most importantly.
it's very commendable tat they were able to reach tat far (finals);
esp when they stood on their own feet, w/o any assistance frm teachers!
GREAT JOB! >.<
so proud of them!

ok.
enough of e blogging.
i hav to rush hw now..
but i am stuck here!!
simply hav no idea wad to write for the essay!
argh..
hopefully i can finish it before 1am.
if not, i might jus go to bed.
wadeva..
tata everyone!