DATE is 13th Jan, not 8th.

took 1 hr to finish my dinner today. -_______-
i seriously hav no appetite.
aft all the crying and confronting, i felt so empty and tired.

RECRUITMENT HAS FINALLY ENDED.
i am proud to say we had 'recruited' 153 sec1s.
is jus onli sign up la. haha.
nothing to hide.
i really dislike such recruitments..
cos CCAs will b backstabbing each other.
for what?
DAMMIT.
it's like, jus mind ur own business la.. losers.
whatever.
fortunately this is my last yr taking part in recruitment campaign.
i guess this was the saddest yr of recruitment i had. sigh..

aft recruitment, BAD BAD things happened.
for the first time, i scolded FUCK.
but i was mumbling la.
POMs & officers always like tat, never discuss things with us.
HELLO, we are sec4s k.
and we are supposed to b taking over the corp right?
we are more like some kids who cant do things right and mus b SHOUTED at.
yah.. as if.
they didnt treat us wif respect, as in WE ARE HUMAN BEINGS.
i heck care abt those respect juniors are giving or wad..
they are good juniors..
is jus tat ur COMMON SENSE tells u tat u should at least noe the limit right?
some still hav the cheek to sit down in sj rm, ordering ppl around.
DAMMIT.
we are not SLAVES k.
RESPECT..
ohh, so ur definition of respect is by GREETING la.
let me tell u this,
EVEN IF WE GREET, IF WE DONT RESPECT U, IT WILL B JUS 'PLAIN FORCED' GREETING.
so what, does greeting means anything?
come on.
if u were us, scolded by POMs in front of juniors, how would u feel?
let me tell u.
SHIT.
what the hell hav we done to deserve such treatments?
think la.
we were trapped in sch thrice.
ALL BECOS OF SJ.
i dare to say that.
hari raya holiday, others go out shopping, hav fun.
we?
slogging all the way frm 11am-6pm to do DOOR GIFTS.
den what do we get?
SHIT again.
i seldom get so worked up and angry.
i didnt wan to talk back or what.
but try to b in my, or rather the rest of sec4s shoes..
no one wans e ending to b like this.
but APOLOGISES doesnt help;
and DESTINY can b changed.
we are COMMITTED.
and this is what we get la.
i didnt expect myself to envy other CCAs.
but i actually did today.
their sec4s can really take over the corp, everyone united as one. )):
i felt like a DUMBO.
we hav NO FACE; NO STAND; NOTHING in sj.
aft 3 yrs of comittement.
BULLSHIT la.
y is our batch always the SUAY one?
y isit happening on US onli?
haix.
TIMO come back.. )):

but..
seriously there're still some good things abt officers and POMs.
they helped us in some stuff la.
but somehow, they r like FORCED or wad.
if not they wouldnt hav said, "DON TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED"; "FEEL LIKE SLAPPING THEM"
not all officers and POMs are like tat.
there're some GOOD cases.
and we do appreciate.
but this time, they were overboard.
they had crossed the LINE. way too much.
haix.
pardon me for saying all these.
i am emotionally unstable, which makes me an unbalanced person. (CME) haha.
ok.
hopefully things will change for the betta. ((:

MR ETHAN WONG IS DEFINITELY A GOOD TEACHER AND COUNSELLOR.
thanks!

btw, congrates to MEIHONG, WAIKIN, ALICIA KOH, GLENDA;
for being commanders.
mus jiayou and put in ur best effort.
sec3s, taking over the corp in few months time le!
JIAYOUS! >.<
it now depends on u all.
u all hav the potential..
JUS PUT IN MORE EFFORT! ((: